Starting from scratch...

Okay...so I wasn't really up-to-date with my first blog but I realized...I really should keep up with this whole blog thing. I have always just been afraid of the "internet Gods" erasing it like how Friendster did with my pictures. AND that's why I only go on Facebook. I'm still waiting for a few people to go on Facebook and once everyone I know on Friendster is on Facebook...goodbye Friendster...FOR-EVERR!

On Monday, August 17, 2009, Claire and I went to the clinic. I decided on the weekend to go and find out if I am pregnant again since I haven't had my period. I didn't want to spend anymore money on the those store-bought pregnancy tests and I'd have to go to the doctor anyway if the test came out positive. So, yes...I am pregnant again. Wooohoo!! My OB was off that day so I ended up seeing one of the other doctors in the clinic whom I have seen before. The weird (REALLY WEIRD) part was when he told me, he gave me a hug. Not just any hug...but a tight squeeze. I wasn't sure how to respond but I also didn't want to embarass him (I'm not really the type). Maybe it was his way of being Pro-Life and welcoming the pregnancy. I dunno...hahaha!

As soon as we left the clinic, I realized...I'm actually scared. Scared of having to deal with the little things again...like what to wear (UGH!), when and what to eat (because of my gestational diabetes which apparently I have a 50% chance of not getting it if I watch what I eat and exercise everyday) and I guess the not so little thing of having a second child. Of course, I love this baby that's being formed inside me, no doubt. But I think the fact that I will have two to take care of --- make that three (plus my husband) --- wait! and the home that I would like to be kept clean and tidy all the time --- makes me S-C-A-R-E-D. However, it's scared like "butterflies in my stomach"-scared. I have always been the risk-taker and strong when it comes to challenges. I know I won't crumble...well, maybe a little but then I'll make it. Aahhh...so, this is life.

P.S. I am not very good with blogging. Sometimes, I don't know what to say and I write it in the not so proper form of english. So, to the readers...thank you for your patience.